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18 December 2009 @ 10:18 pm
Yeah, I admit I'm disappointed, I'm feeling hurt, I'm feeling negative.
It's always the same excuse so why should I even be shocked?

Time to face it Megan you're not one of them and you never will be.
I'm kind of glad, though. It's not like I want to be so fake, so on-the-surface, so flitt-y.

Screw them.
05 November 2009 @ 07:13 pm
Panicking, and bleeding again. Fuck.
03 November 2009 @ 01:24 pm
OK so we have officially survived 8 papers, and have 5 more to go. And 3 of these 5 papers are major stress papers. On the same day.

This O level is completely messing me up. I never used to get so stressed over exams. Yes, I would panic. I would scream. But I've never before gone into fits of hysteria, got worked up to the point of insanity and had nosebleeds/severe tummyaches because I was stressing out.

Mummy always says, if I prepare for the exam beforehand and not panic at the last moment then it wouldnt be so bad. But even if I study I always end up in tears the day before the exam because suddenly my head goes blank and it feels like I don't know a single thing.

I don't even want to think about Thursday night because I KNOW I will be stressing, I know I'll probably have another nosebleed, probably will suffer another panic attack. But that's just what exams do to me and I guess I have to accept it.
26 September 2009 @ 03:36 pm
I hate being stuck in Irritating Irene Wong's history class.

I'm not going to show her respect because 1. she doesn't deserve it 2. she's a bitch 3. she shows no respect for us either.

I bet she's the kind of teacher who would deliberately google her name to find out what students are saying about her. Well I hope she finds this lj so she can get a good look of what we really think about her. Which is fulfilling her aim.. right?

I wish I'd said something when she came in and spoke to us about banding for History. It wasn't easy getting Mrs Sew who is so heartbreakingly kind to her to tell her that we weren't happy about the banding. Well Irritating Wong seemed to think that we minded being separated from our classmates. Bloody well wrong. I don't CARE (eh eh eh eh eh) about being banded, I care about the teacher who's taking us. I should have let her know we HATE her.

I hate her for ruining my love for History. I hate her for confusing me about SBQ techniques. I miss Mrs Sew because Mrs Sew was genuinely concerned for us. She isn't.

I pity her kids for having such a foul, dirtymouthed toerag for a mother.

Seriously I don't believe there's nothing we can do about her. Parents' letter? Mummy would gladly write one and I'm sure the same can be said for everyone's parents. Petitions would never help because TKGS is crap and I stopped believing in the fairness of the school system a long time ago. Ever since Marilyn Chia came in with the pathetic "sec 1, 2, 3 and 4 must go in order" excuse.

I dare to openly criticise TKGS because I am fed up with the bunch of bull shit they throw at us. TKGS refuses to install air conditioning in the hall despite the fact that the Sec 4 batch of every year has to take O levels there. The bloody fans are no use. In fact the fans annoy us to no end because of how our papers keep flying everywhere every time the fan blows in our direction.

Their excuse for delaying the installation of aircon? NO MONEY. Yeah. Right. How come you have money to paint the canteen in the ugliest colours possible, then? How come you have money to build a fucking POND? The pond is useless, btw. Does it serve any purpose besides adding to the scenery? No. It was a waste of money, a waste of time, a waste of manpower and a complete waste of resources.

This is why I refuse to contribute to whatever fund raising this stupid school organises. I am NOT going to pay for the school to build another

If TKGS is indignant about these accusations then prove me wrong by all means. Install air conditioning. Get rid of the ugly pond. And lastly, choose your teachers properly.
23 September 2009 @ 07:14 pm
Amanda says my blog posts are either idol posts or angry rants - which is true I have to admit.

I dunno, I haven't had much inspiration to blog. Probably nothing interesting to talk about since it's mostly just school homework papers and more papers.

But on a brighter note, prelims are over. Spent Saturday at Jolene's watching All About DBSK 3. Jaejoong was so adorable and Junsu, really cute. Changmin is unexpectedly funny and really zilian. I miss DBSK and I really hope they won't split up because of stupid SM. If they have to fully transfer to Avex and perform only in Japan from now on.. then.. if they can remain as Tohoshinki that way as Marie said then please, by all means.

I love Korea, but the antifans are too much. Asking for Jay Park's resignation, and GD to leave? No way. Jay already left but YG will protect GD. They better do.
30 August 2009 @ 11:02 am
You know what? You're not even worth it.
05 July 2009 @ 10:27 am
I should update with something less negative.

School is -whatever-, as usual. I feel like a robot just going there, sitting down, taking in whatever the teacher has to say then leaving at the end of the day.

Did I mention I screwed Chinese oral?
Goodbye A1, I'll miss you.

OK, equally negative.

I hate O levels, because they're making me and everyone around me grumpy.
Fuck whoever invented them.
27 May 2009 @ 05:52 pm
OK, a momentary revival of my killed lj with midyear results:
English A2 - No, not good enough.
Chinese B4 - my first and last B in chinese ok, i REALLY can't afford to screw up format and compre again. Because the next one is the O level.
Emath B4 -  whatever. I didn't even make any effort so I don't really care.
Amath C5 - I am. Sore. About. This. If not for the stupid careless mistakes I could have gotten an A. Or at least a B.
Bio A2 - 74.5 WTFFFFF!
Chem A2 - OK, but not good enough.
Lit A1 - OK. Satisfied. Could do better though.
Hist/SS A2 - if I hadn't screwed up the part (b) essay question.. ):

L1R5: 13.
Average: 68.58

I have the same L1R5 AND average as Jaslyn. Yay (: I'm glad for her. We both could have done alot better but it's OK, it can be worked on.
AND even though she beat me in both Maths.. she didn't boast about it like someone.

Can't wait for Chinese O level to be over, I'm chionging 4 assessment books and reading everything I can get my hands on. Need. A1. For. Chinese. Anything less than that and I would never forgive myself.

SHINee's comeback is today, but Juliette isn't a great song so I'm not going to follow. I liked AMIGO better. 

OK, need icecream now.
14 November 2008 @ 07:14 pm
Quiz from Jesslyn (:


1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
I don't know, do you?

2. Honestly, what's on your mind?
Wonder Bakery!

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
Honestly? Watching Wonder Bakery and not really focusing on this quiz.

4. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
Eh.. ate too much chips and chocolate. But I did only eat half a tub of icecream. So hmm?

5. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?

6. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
Yeah.. the girl Jae's going to kiss in his new drama.

7. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
Um.. people who irritate me, who don't keep their word, who cancel last minute, who lie.

8. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
Not really.. only during exams.

9. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
Lol no.

10. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
Jaejoong and DBSK count?

11. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now?

12. Honestly, do you have a friend you dont actually like?

13. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat?
Sometimes. If I didn't get enough dinner. But I usually do.


1. What do you do when you're mad?
Usually? I start screaming at innocent people. I'm trying to change that, okay.

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
I wanted to disown my father. Lol. That count?

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
Mummy. Because she's sad when I am. ):

4. Do you swear when you're mad?
Yeah.. I start screaming FUDGE!!!!


1. When was the last time you actually cried?
Don't know.

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
Not really.

3. Do certain songs make you cry?
No. I don't cry for songs.

4. What usually makes you cry?
Sad dramas. Lol. I dunno, touching stuff?


1. Are you usually a happy person?
I hope so.

2. What makes you the happiest?
I don't know.


1. What did you do this afternoon?
Ate Ichiban Sushi with Mummy and Amanda.

2. When was the last time you smiled?
A while ago.

3. Can you use chopsticks?

4. Who was the last person you lied in bed with?
I LAY in bed with.. my pillows.

5. Do you remember what you were like a year ago?

6. Do you have unlimited texting?
No, sadly. I always go over.

7. Ever cried because of happiness?
Yeah in Primary 6.

8. Anything you're giving up on?
Yeah.. my red hair extension.

9. Whose pool did you last swim in?

10. Are you planning on throwing party this summer?
Lol no.. party for what?

11. What makes you laugh?
Amanda. Maybe.

12. How was last weekend?
Sucky. I really hate my father sometimes.

13. Where would you go right this second?
I dunno. To my room?

14. What is the worst thing that has happened to you lately?

15. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yeah, Mummy.

16. Do you miss anyone?
I guess.. my dad. A bit.

17. Are you growing apart from someone close?
Uh.. I dunno?

18. Do you love your life?
Not really. But I'll take it.

19. Who do you trust?
Mummy. Amanda.

20. What will you be doing in 3 hours?
Watching Gossip Girl, I think.

21. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Eh.. dancing around to Mirotic. Haha don't laugh la please. It's catchy can!

22. Could you go a day without eating?
NO. End of story.

23. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Yeah cos Mummy was coming back.

24. First thing you do when you wake up?
Brush teeth and eat. Haha.

25. What's on your bedroom floor right now?
Eh.. my fluffy pink slippers. My room is clean!

26. Do you trust people easily?
I don't know, do I?

27. How many pillows on your bed?

28. How many things are on your bed in total?
6. Three pillows, two bolsters, my purple blanket.
Current Music: Nobody - Wonder Girls
02 November 2008 @ 12:24 pm
DBSK sings HUG on a radio show, "noraebang" version. Sibeh funny. And my Jaejoong never fails to crack me up silly.
He's so cute <3

Okay, haven't updated for a damn long time.
Last Friday went to sleep at Jolene's house with Hannah. Esther came and we watched Super Show dvd. Omg Suju is super cute please! But it's sad Kibum didn't perform much cos he was so cute with the slightly unshaven look. All he did was rap. =O But I like She's Gone. And Miracle. And that Dancing Out song. And Rokukko! Lol at the "65" thing. Roku and go.. wth!
And we ordered pizza. I was actually damn full cos Cousin brought back food again. I'm obsessed with xiao long bao now. I swear can eat more than 20 at one go. So I was full when they ordered pizza. But then think about the pizza.. and the crust.. and the ham.. and everything.. and I got hungry again. Okay it runs in the family. Because this happens all the time. Daddy's like.. no, cannot, very full already.. but if you leave the food on the table long enough it'll be gone. So can't blame me la right. =P
Laughed until about one, then fell asleep on Jolene's very cramped bed. Woke up around nine to ten plus and had macs (: I love filet o fish. Jolene has this weird thing where she gets names mixed up. Mcsausage muffin huh? And fish o filet? =O
Went home at about 11, had major lunch with Godma and Godpa and Godsister. I love having lunch with them! They always have super nice food. And they're nice (:

Thursday, went to Jesslyn's house after school to kill time before dance. Yes I'm going for dance because Mrs Thong called my mum and I can't avoid it anymore. Shite sad. But I do love Jesslyn's room man. Even though it has cockroaches, lol. Because she has instant noodles, chips, chocolate, muffins, cookies, crackers, soup.. everything man. And she even has a hot water dispenser. Lol. Pampered kid! I borrowed her Gossip Girl books, finished them in an hour average, and now Mummy's reading them. Haha. It's stupid but nice to read.

Been watching DBSK videos again on youtube; I can officially say my love has been rekindled majorly. It was getting a little low.. and I missed getting high over DBSK. So I went to watch MBC Come To Play and laughed so hard. Jae is so cute <3 Actually all of DBSK are cute.
I do love them (: